In college, I had heard that one of my friends had tried anal sex with her boyfriend and instantly we were repulsed by the very thought! In secret we discussed the ins and outs asking if it hurt like everyone says it does and if things got messy. Even though she said she enjoyed it, we were still repulsed. Cut to now. A recent discussion between the same friends went the same way, asking if it were painful or dirty. In my head I wanted to admit to everyone the sexual awakening I had via my backdoor, but I had the same hesitant voice in my head that shames me every time I say the word vibrator.